Kiwi

 ...And I still long for the day I get to peel your kiwi.

My Garden - A Poem

 I own a garden, it isn't a pretty one... I barely ever took care of it, it was nothing special to me

But one day a butterfly came, it was the most beautiful butterfly I've ever seen

The butterfly loved that garden and stayed there making me company for years and years

But I made a mistake, I took my little butterfly for granted and forgot to take care of it

My butterfly flew away from my garden, never to be seen or heard from again

And ever since, I've been taking care of my garden, while I wait for my butterfly to come back

They say that by improving my garden, all the butterflies will want to come to it

But I do not care for that... for my own butterfly is still out there and I still wait for it

I might build the most beautiful garden. But no butterfly is allowed to step in

I've taken care of every flower, every root, making sure I never make the same mistake

And now I just pray and wait, day after day

That my butterfly will one day come back again

I love to see you smile - Randy Newman / Cover

 

 

 

 I was born to make you happy.
I think you're just my style.
Everywhere I go,
Tellin' everyone I know,
Baby, I love to see you smile.

Don't want to take a trip to China.
Don't want sail up the Nile.
Wouldn't wan' get too far,
From where you are,
'Cause I love to see you smile.

Like a sink without a faucet.
Like a watch without a dial.
What would I do if I didn't have you.
I love to see you smile.

In the summer, in the springtime,
The winter, or the fall,
The only place I wanna be
Is where I can see you smile at me.

In a world that's full of trouble,
Y'make it all worth while.
What would I do if I didn't have you.
I just love to see you smile.
I love to see you smile.

In the summer, in the springtime,
The winter, or the fall,
The only place I wanna be
Is where I can see you smile at me.

In a world that's full of trouble,
Y'make it all worth while.
What would I do if I didn't have you.
I love to see you smile.
I love to see you smile.

 

 

Night

 

Tears that fall like raindrops,
an endless stream of heartache and pain.
Each night, as darkness falls,
I'm haunted by the weight of my sorrows.

My pillow becomes a confidant,
absorbing the overflow of my tears.
The silence is palpable,
as my soul cries out in agony.

The world around me fades away,
leaving me alone with my pain.
Memories flash before my eyes,
reminding me of all that I've lost.

Each tear is a release,
a cathartic release of emotion.
I cry until I am exhausted,
exhausted from the weight of my grief.

But somehow, in the morning light,
the world feels just a little lighter.
The tears may have stained my cheeks,
but they have cleansed my soul.

And so I cry myself to sleep,
night after night, in a never-ending cycle.

Max - After the Rain

 

I see you struggling with the weight of sadness that’s been hard to shake
It breaks my heart to see you down, but I promise you I won’t let you drown
I know it’s hard to see the light, when darkness takes over the night
But I’m here to be your guide, and show you that you’re worth the fight.

I know it’s not easy to cope
But you don’t have to do it alone
I’m here to lend a helping hand
And together we'll make a stand
When the world gets too heavy 
I’ll hold you tight and steady
And together we’ll fight this pain
And find the sunshine after the rain… find the sunshine after the rain

I see you there with a heavy heart, fighting everyday just to play your part
I know it’s hard and it’s been a while but I’ll be here every step, every mile
I see the pain in your eyes, it’s hard to hide and harder to disguise
I know it’s tough but you’re not alone cause I’ll be here to help you carry on

I know it’s not easy to cope
But you don’t have to do it alone
I’m here to lend a helping hand
And together we can make a stand
When the world gets too heavy 
I’ll hold you tight and steady
And together we’ll fight this pain
And find the sunshine after the rain… find the sunshine after the rain

 

Max - Powder

Her name is Powder, a girl so bright
But fate dealt her a cruel dark night
A mistake she made, a fatal error
Left her alone with nothing but terror
She tried to run, to escape the pain
But the memories stayed like an unbroken chain
The world saw her as a freak, a danger to all
But all that she wanted was to hear someone's call

Powder, Powder, where did you go?
Left with nothing but guilt and woe
Blowing up your family, a tragedy so rare
But it left her alone with a life so unfair
Powder, Powder, we hear your cries
We'll be there for you until the day we die
Your past may be dark but your future is bright
We'll hold your hand and guide you through the night, yeah.

The monkey bomb tore her world apart
Ripping away her family and heart
Haunted by the memories every day
But no one's there to help her find her way
She cries herself to sleep at night
Dreaming of a world without the fight
But in the morning, she wakes up alone
And then her heart turns to stone

Powder, Powder, where did you go?
Left with nothing, but guilt and woe
Blowing up your family, a tragedy so rare
But it left her alone, with a life so unfair
Powder, Powder, we hear your cries
We'll be there for you, until the day we die
Your past may be dark, but your future is bright
We'll hold your hand, and guide you through the night, yeah.

Max - Self-Love

I used to look in the mirror, and hate what I saw
But now I'm learning to love myself, flaws and all
I'm on a journey, to find peace within
I'm done with self-hate, it's time to begin
I used to put others first, and forget about me
But now I'm learning to prioritize, my own needs
Taking care of my body, and my mind
I'm learning to be patient, I'm learning to be kind
It's not always easy, to love yourself
But it's worth it, for your own mental health
Take it one day at a time, be gentle with yourself
You're worthy of love, you're worthy of help
Self-love, it's the greatest gift you can give
To yourself, to your soul, to the way you live
I'm grateful for this journey and all that I've learned
I'm living my life and I'm loving every turn.

Self-love is a journey, not a destination
I'm on my way to find a place of self-appreciation
Learning to love, everything about me

Used to hate myself, used to feel so lost
I couldn't find my way, I couldn't count the no loss
I thought I needed someone else, to feel complete
But I learned the hard way, that self love is key
Used to hide my scars, used to feel so ashamed
But I'm learning to embrace them, to wear them like a chain
They're a part of me, they tell my story
I'm learning to be proud, to own my glory
I'm not perfect, I'm not trying to be
I'm just learning to accept, the real me
I'm finding my own voice, my own path
I'm learning to be happy, in my own skin at last
Self love is a journey, not a destination
But I'm learning to enjoy the ride, to find elation
I'm learning to be kind, to myself and others
I'm learning to be me, to embrace all my colors.

Self-love, it's a journey, not a destination
I'm on my way to find a place of self-appreciation
Learning to love, everything about me

Max - Goodbye

 

 Farewell my friends, I must depart
This road I've traveled is not far anymore, it's not far
I've laughed and loved, I've cried and fought
But now I can't take this anymore, no I can't

Goodbye life, goodbye to all I've known
Goodbye to laughter, to the tears I've shown
Goodbye to memories, both good and bad
Goodbye life, I'm not hard to crack and you did it
Yes you did it

I've walked the mountains, I've sailed the seas
I've seen the beauty, and I've felt the breeze
I've felt the joy, I've felt the pain
But now it's time to say farewell to life, to life

Goodbye life, goodbye to all I've known
Goodbye to laughter, and the tears I've shown
Goodbye to memories, both good and bad
Goodbye life, I'm not hard to crack and you did it
Yes you did it

So here's to life, and all that it brings
The laughter, and the joy
It seems that I'll miss you, but I must go
Goodbye life, I'll see you down the road.

Max - Future Unknown

 

I thought I had it all, I thought I found my way
But now I'm standing here, with nothing left to say
I thought I had love, but it just slipped away
And now I'm left here, feeling lonely every day

I'll always be alone, with nothing but my pain
No one to hold me tight, or chase my fears away
I'll always be alone, with nothing but my dreams
Wishing for a love, that's more than what it seems

I tried to love again, I tried to find my way
But every time I do, it just ends the same
I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of feeling low
And now I'm left here, with nothing but my soul

I'll always be alone, with nothing but my pain
No one to hold me tight, or chase my fears away
I'll always be alone, with nothing but my dreams
Wishing for a love, that's more than what it seems

I'll always be alone, with nothing but my pain
No one to hold me tight, or chase my fears away
And even then, I'll still be alone
With nothing but my love, and a future that's unknown.

Max - Untitled

 

 

Remember the days, when we laughed and smiled
And every kiss felt like it lasted for miles
We had something special, something pure and divine
And now I'm left here, missing what we had all the time
We talked about forever, and all of the things we'd do
But now it's just a dream, that never came true
We had something rare, something worth fighting for
But you didn't fight for it and now I'm here all alone
I know it's over, and I have to move on
But I'll keep the memories, and hold them in my heart until dawn

I'll always miss what we had, that love that we shared
The memories we made, they still linger and I'm scared
I'll always miss your touch, that way you made me feel
And I'll always miss what we had, that love that was so real

I'll always miss what we had, that love that we shared
The memories we made, they still linger and I'm scared
I'll always miss your touch, that way you made me feel
I'll always miss what we had, that love that felt so real.

The Boy Who Liked Games - A poem

 

There was a lonely boy who spent most of his days locked away in his room, playing videogames. He had never been particularly outgoing, and had always struggled to make friends. But in the virtual world, he was free to be whoever he wanted to be. He could explore new worlds, fight epic battles, and make friends with other players from all over the world.

For the boy, videogames provided a much-needed escape from the loneliness and isolation he felt in the real world. He would lose himself in the games for hours on end, forgetting about his troubles and finding solace in the camaraderie and adventure of the virtual world.

As he grew older, he began to realize that the connections he had made in the virtual world were just as real and meaningful as those in the physical world. He started to build deeper relationships with the other players he had met, and even found a sense of purpose through the teamwork and cooperation that came with playing online.

Despite the challenges he faced in the real world, the boy found comfort in the virtual world of videogames. It was there that he found friendship, adventure, and a sense of belonging. And though he may have still been lonely in the physical world, he knew that he was never truly alone in the virtual world.

Loneliness - A poem

 

Nobody loves me, nobody cares,
I'm just a face among the crowd,
A lonely soul with nobody to share
My thoughts and feelings cannot be shouted out loud.

I walk the streets with downcast eyes
Hoping to find a friendly face,
But all I find are cold goodbyes
And an empty, lonely place.

I try to laugh and try to smile
To hide the hurt inside my heart,
But all the while I'm falling apart.
 

I'll never know
The warmth of love and tender touch,

I'll always be alone,
A lonely soul loved by none.

Done With the Fakers - Freestyle

 

I'm done with the fakers, the ones who pretend
They say they're my homies, but they ain't my friends
I'm cutting the cord, and moving ahead
I don't need no one who's tryna mislead

Sick of the lies, and the games that they play
Talk behind my back? hm, that's okay
I'm done with the drama, the stress, the fights
I'm leaving them all behind, it's time to take flight

I'll surround myself, with people who are real
Who accept me for who I am, and how I feel
I'll find true friends, who will be there till the end
Who will support me, and be my truest friend

Goodbye to the fakers, the haters, the snakes
I'm done with the phonies, the ones that are fake
I'm on to bigger things, and a brighter future
With real friends by my side, I'll never be a loser.

NEVER ENOUGH

 

Through struggles and strife, he tried with all his might, to be the best version of himself, to set things right.

He worked hard day and night, with determination in his eyes, but no matter how much he tried, he couldn't shake the lies.

The lies that whispered in his ear, that he was never good enough, that his efforts were in vain, and his dreams just a fluff.

He tried to push them away, but they clung to him like a curse, and as he battled on, his spirit began to worsen.

He gave his all, but it seemed to never be enough, and as the weight of the world, pressed down on him with a heavy rough.

His heart grew weary, and his hope began to fade, for no matter how hard he tried, he could never escape the shade.

But still he fought, with all his might, for deep down he knew, that giving up was not right.

For though he may never be enough, in the eyes of others, he knows that he's given it his all, and that's what truly matters.

And as he continues on, with head held high and eyes bright, he'll keep on trying, for that's what makes him shine so bright.